“In a corner, in the farthest part inside me a deer is crying,” she said through the shivering of her palms. As for the hoarseness of her voice, she declared, “something so deep happened that words cannot contain.”
You may say: everything passes
– And I say: But the war and its consequences do not pass or be forgotten
The war has left hundreds of emigrant girls and thousands of girls without a breadwinner, including me, “Asala”.
The hero of the battle who, in any case, came out defeated – how not – and the foes are unequal and I am the weak and victorious.
I found myself forced to live with a young man who accompanied me on the journey of emigration and with all its risks. At that time, I thought that my presence with him and under his protection would represent an impenetrable barrier to any violation of me.
Seiyun – Salih Obaid
The reality of the war is bitter, as Asala suddenly found herself in Seiyun, homeless without her family, except for a relative who accompanied her on the journey of emigration and lived with him in a Seiyun hotel. During this period, Asala, 19 years old, found herself as his wife without any marriage contract, a wife only out of sexual desire, and with this However, for her, the brave hero and the right man were enough that he was with her in a strange city. She is indeed grateful to fate for her presence in Seiyun, which is quiet, far from the shooting, and t sound of air raids, which destabilizes and makes you in constant anxiety, waiting for the final moment. Seiyun made Asala believe that she is in the place she is looking for the desired safety for which she paid a heavy price, the price is her “city”, but life is not characterized to this degree and the arrows directed at Asala have not yet been implemented. Asala was kept in the office under the pretext that there was no place to detain and arrest the girls in the office. The investigator’s gaze kept besieging Asala and even imprisoning her if she was not tightening a noose around her neck to suffocate with his demonic looks. During his visual pursuit of her, and from the intensity of her fear, she was trembling and turning red in the face, like a small red bird that had just fallen into a cold pool of water, only to get out of it shivering as if he had been subjected to an electric shock. All this added to Asala’s beauty above her beauty as if she was missing more charming temptation. The fitness of the body made the investigator drool to get the body of Asala, who seduced him like a piece of candy that he could not resist, then he closed the door of the office, and the windows of his manhood were closed with the door forever.
Then the funeral ceremonies were held for his departed conscience without return, he raped Asala, and when she resisted him, he told her to surrender her body to him, as she does with the illegitimate paramour. Unless you do that, you will not see freedom, and you will remain imprisoned in him, who enjoys taking his desire from her by force, which made the skinny body that refuses him submit and surrender to him so that he may end the suspension order. “It began as an attempt to build a house in the sea by displacing the water aside.” Indeed, after several days of practicing with her, she was married off through the research investigator to the illegitimate paramour and she was released, and Asala found herself without refuge again and without a back to protect her this time after her separation from the illegitimate paramour The one who refused to continue with her in a legal relationship on the pretext that she had surrendered herself to the investigator of her own free will, why did he behave with her like this as if she was a prostitute?!.
However, it is said that the more a man is concerned about his manhood, the more hostile and contemptuous he is towards Asala to the Women’s Union in Seiyun and canceled the incident and the violation that befell her, which unfortunately she could not document or prove with any evidence other than the narration by her and some physical traces that were inscribed on her to bring back the bitter memory of her despite her not forgetting.
Situations in which one feels pity for himself. Not to be forgotten, never to be forgotten, in addition to the grave psychological effects that befell her. Asala is still homeless to this moment.
In addition, the arrows of life are still throwing more at her, as if she ignited the fuse of the war, and she is only a victim joining the list of victims as long as the length of this damned war.
